Ever since our 4th child was born in August it seems that life has just never gotten back “under control”.  We had a newborn, my husband began his fall semester, we started our home school year, the fall busy season for JMP started up and now the holidays…  I am exhausted, grouchy and typically just trying to play catch up most of the time now.  This is so foreign to me…  I know I am doing a LOT…  It just feels like the crazy is creeping in to my life. lol

There have been more days than I care to admit that I just want to bury my head under a pillow to just drown out the noise.  To block out the constant chatter of a 4 year old, to not hear the fighting, or even the squealing of a good time, to not hear my 4 month old cry any more during one of her fussy days…  I love them more than my own life, more than anything on this earth but sometimes my ears are just tired.

Sometimes I lay in bed at night, looking at Pinterest, playing candy crush or just browsing for my next idea and I can’t keep my eyes open.  I forge ahead and force my eyelids open for just a few more minutes only because I know as soon as I fall asleep the quiet will be gone.  The next conscious moment will be filled with a baby wanting to eat or a child with a bad dream or a “morning mommy” and the chatter will begin again…  Just a few more minutes…  Sometimes I feel like I wait all day for those few quiet moments…

This morning I woke up early, not for any specific reason except I needed to get some things done in the quiet.  I have been wanting to take some photos of them sleeping but have just never followed through…  I am so glad I did <3  These little people are such a precious gift and this is just a season.  The images remind me that I need to soak in their littleness, it wont be around for long.  Even as I type this I have my baby in my lap and has fallen asleep to the clicking of the keyboard.  They grow up so fast.  In the mean time, when I am overwhelmed and my ears are tired I need to choose my moments, the quiet moments, and rest in the knowledge that God has made me to be enough.  Even though I may not think the strokes of daily life are beautiful by themselves right now, our life IS beautiful and I need to remember that and change my perspective a bit…