My life is a little crazy right now…  It is a wonderful crazy but crazy none the less.  I am determined to rock this “mom of 4” thing but right now I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water!  Emma was born August 1st and I gave myself 1 month before we started our home-school year.  Our last 3 weeks of school have gone great but there is no way to get around the fact that it is just one more time intensive thing that I have to fit in the day.  Ethan is 6 and working his way through 1st grade, Lauren is 3 and enjoying lots of preschool activities, Noah is 1 and BUSY, Emma is 7 weeks old now and is just needing the normal amount of attention a newborn requires.

Did I mention my life is crazy right now? lol

When my husband and I got married he said he wanted 3-4 kids and I said 4-5…  Fast forward 11 years and our 4th child is 7 weeks old and I am struggling with the idea that this might be our last baby.  I LOVE babies so this is a hard thing for me to process through.  Do I want to be pregnant again? NO!  Am I feeling overwhelmed with what is currently on my plate? YES!  Do I dream of a time when I will have more time to devote to my photography business? ALL the time!  Am I ready for the idea of being “done” with babies?  Now that is a MUCH harder question to answer…

With that said, our most recent addition was not a “planned” addition.  We knew we wanted another baby but she was not “in the plan” yet.  This past year was supposed to be all about JMP!  Instead I spent it pregnant and knowing that I would have to take things much slower.  It was a struggle.  I had planed out the whole year already and all of the sudden everything I had planned needed to be changed or put on hold.  Emma is just about the sweetest little person you have ever met.  I can’t imagine our life without her and she has 3 adoring older siblings that we have to protect her from because of how “aggressively” they love on her!  We are blessed beyond measure and I thank God every day that he didn’t let me have my plan.

I was busy cleaning up our living room trying to get ready for company and glanced over to her swing.  I can’t express the love I have for this little person.  She is simply perfect, exactly the way God intended her to be, in our family for a reason.  How is that not one of the most beautiful things in life?

How she can possibly sleep this peacefully through a 6, 3 and 1 year old’s noise I have no idea but I know without a doubt she is a precious gift and I refuse to wish away the days!  I am going to try my hardest to soak it all in, because babies don’t keep and she just might be my last…